Monday, May 17, 2010

cradle your head in your hands


And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

There are times in life when it all comes down to the simple fact of just growing up. How quickly the years have gone. As I have learned in time, people change and people grow. Some grow into your life while others grow out. I am still on my journey, my constant search for success-growth-love-and most of all myself. The search for ones self is the journey- the story of life. Sometimes I look upon my life and actions through time, and feel as if I have lost who I once was. The shy young girl, who played in the wind and smiled in the sunshine. I remember closing my eyes and feeling the one and only feeling of life -those moments when there wasn't a care in my mind. I miss being that girl, that sweet young girl just living to dream. I feel as if over the years I have allowed myself to be cold, guarded, and silent to my heart. How does one go about fixing that? Maybe it is all in my head. In my mind I know what I know, I am who I am, and I'm doing what I need to do to live, stay focused, and succeed. Sometimes, all of this doing breaks down my soul.
With life- journey-success there comes so many responsibilities.


What I have become most thankful for are my friends, family, and determination. I am not perfect, and by no means ever will be.
I just hope that one day all my hard work will pay off.

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